okay, well bill’s Q&A here is pretty revealing.
on self medicating:
“had a short phase of indulgence years back. Tho my memory is hazy, evidently
the nights were pretty wild. My journal entries from that period have titles
like, “How I ended up face down on the street next to my scooter” and, “High
heel in the toilet””
on eating disorders/also comments on anxiety:
“When I was
your age I was called “faggot” and “freak” in the hallways
for the way I dressed and the music I listened to. I was also very underweight and went through a short bout of
anorexia caused by anxiety and low self-esteem.”
bill talked about his panic attacks, suicidal thoughts & stuff in alternative press awhile ago, but i can’t find that anywhere now (it was published in 07 sooo) but heres an article that alludes to it if you dont believe me
“I’m sure that you’ve read the “Alternative Press” article? Which for the record, it was bad, but it was never meant to be glamorized like that. I never meant for it to be put out like that. I maybe talked about it for five minutes out of the whole two hour interview we did. [Beckett is referring to the interview he did with AP for their June issue where they mentioned his panic attacks, depression and thoughts of suicide last year]”
and here he talks about just you wait and why he wrote it and his past depression
“our parents divorced when we were very young, so my mom tried to provide the best environment for us, and a few times that meant moving. Being the new kid in school is never an easy thing to do, and my sister and I went through some bullying and singling out. Having a strong individuality just made bullies want to isolate us more. As a result, my sister and I had some real issues with depression and anxiety - leading to thoughts of suicide. This song is all about having strength and perseverance when it feels like you have no reason to.”
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